Summer Revelations

 August 5-11, 2025

Ability and capability, vs “potential”.

It’s not a lack of motivation, but a lack of self-control. The ability to control the feeling of resistance in myself. The feeling of “I don’t want to”; the ability to control that.

Perhaps part of why it feels so difficult is the possibility of rejection. Legitimate reasons for rejection—busy, unable—but a no nonetheless.

And maybe because I don’t like the feeling of being rejected, I never reject others. At least, when I can’t say yes because of time, I would want to arrange for a different time or adjust my own time. I say "at least", because I can't 

And then there are one that I take so much liberty with that I feel indebted later. Am I a toxic friend?

The cowardly changing of the rules when I feel like it.

Unresponsiveness is rejection. So rejection is control.

自私的换位思考