As closure, to indicate I'm completely over him now, I'd like to dedicate this entry to all those who have toiled or are toiling in the game of looking for signs.
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Walking a bit slower, to stall time
Looking that way, then looking away, hoping eyes didn't meet but hoping they keep looking
Thinking of excuses to text
Thinking of ways to prolong text conversation
Imagining conversations
Being hypersensitive to their name
Trying to calm outward reaction, "쿨하게"
Waiting for response
Timing gaps between responses
Estimating their schedule
Having strange, self-deemed, unrecognized authority to advise others of their condition, thoughts or personality
Calming expectations
Spotting them first in a crowd
Laughing louder, or exaggerating other self-deemed good qualities
Aligning emotions subconsciously
Pretending to be bored or irritated to be together /again/ in front of other people
Calculating chances
Counting memories together
Bringing up memories together in hopes that they join in nostalgia
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